Sunday, October 07, 2007

Decided to come back, but I guess now the posts that I will be posting will be kinda emo because I only come here to vent my frustration/ let out my feelings. So thats what coming up.

I am feeling so blue.. Do I really want to do it. Do i really know how to do it. Why must I be the way I am. Why can't I do that. Why must I do what I am doing now. Why can't I push myself. Why must I be so slack. Why am I not improving. Why can't I just relax the correct thing. Why can't be more intelligent. Why can't i just be like others. Why am I the way I am now. Why are there so many questions in life.

To others, I may seem like I can do, though I think otherwise. Why do people just think that I am thinking about the things that I should not be thinking of. Why can't people understand me a little more. Why I can't be the perfect person I want to be. Why am I giving up when everyone else has not given up on me. Why am I not trying my best. What exactly is wrong with me. Why am I like that. Why why why. Why is the world like that. Why can't i just try a little harder. Why can't I just see how much others is trying to help me. Why can't I just be better.


I am so sorry. I don't mean to make you sad. I hope you can understand how I am feeling. I really want to thank you for always being there for me, for always pushing me though I seem to have given up, for always being so patient with me thought I am really an idiot that doesn't deserve such stuff. I really want to thank you for everything, for putting so much energy on me. I am sorry for letting you down. I am so so sorry. And I hope you can forgive me even when I cry while writing this. You are really a great person, and I am thankful that I have met you. I love you so much.

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Saturday, July 07, 2007

hey. today is the live earth thing so i m like typing in green. anyways, had the swan lake auditions today that was doing class with the company. i totally felt like shit. so lets not talk about it. after class, they were practising for school demo which is like the same as DAS. and i was like i miss alpha so so much. i was like that was what alpha used to do and now its someone else. I REALLY MISS YOU ALPHA. i hope you can come back like real soon but i know you will never come back. so maybe i shld go to the ballet school in canada so i can go see the lovely lovely alpha. yea.

well guys, just wear green for these 2 days.

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Thursday, March 15, 2007

Australian
[x] you wear flip flops all year
[] you call thongs thongs not flipflops
[] you love a backyard barbie
[] you know a barbie is not a doll
[x] you love the beach
[x] sometimes you swear without realizing
[x] you're a sports fanatic
[] you are stacks tanned
[] you're a bit of a bogan
[] you scratch your butt without shame
[x] you have an australian something
Total=5

Italian
[] The Godfather is a great movie.
[] Your grandmother makes her own sauce.
[x] Your last name ends in a vowel.
[] You know how a real meatball tastes.
[] You know a lot of italian songs.
[x] You have dark hair and dark eye color
[] You speak some italian.
[x] You are under 5'3''.
[x] Pizza is the best food in the world.
[] You talk with your hands
Total=4

Hispanic
[x] You say member instead of REmember
[] You speak spanish
[] You love rice and Beans.
[] YoU TyPe lIkE ThIs On Da CoMpUtEr.
[] You are dark skinned
[] You know what a Bodega is.
[] You talk fast.
[] If you are a guy you get a shapeup, If you are a girl you have hadhighlights or dyed your hair.
Total= 1

Russian
[] you say villian as: Vee-lon
[x] you get short tempered
[x] you know of sombody named boris/natasha
[] white white skinned
[x] you get cold easily - my mom says i don't haf enough fat :((
[x] you are athletic
[x] snow is fun for you
[] You get into contests often - the only fancy dress contest i went for was when i was 6, and i got stage fright and ended up wailing on stage
[x] You can easily make do with the cold weather
Total =6

Irish
[] you think beer is the best
[x] You have a bad temper.
[] Your last name starts with a Mc ORMurph or O' or Fitz or ends with aly,on,un,an,ry,ty.
[] You have blue or green eyes.
[x] You like the color green.
[] You have been to a st.pattys dayparty.
[] you have family from Ireland.
[] you're catholic
[]you've had corned beef cabbage and potatoes on st.patricks day and another time during the year randomly
Total = 2

Black
[] You say nigga/nukka casually
[] You have nappy hair
[] You LOVE rap
[] You talk with slang
[] You know how to shoot a gun
[] You think President George WalkerBush is racist
[x] You like chicken
[x] You like watermelon
[x] you can dance
[]you can ‘sing’ gospel
[] Your parents said they found you inthe jungle in Africa
Total =3

Asian
[x] you have slanty eyes
[] you LOVE rice
[] you are smart
[x] you have played the piano
[x] you have family from asia
[] you have teeny feet - what's considered teeny?
[x] you laugh sometimes covering your mouth
[x] most people think you're chinese
[x] you call hurricanes typhoons - I say both
[] you go to Baulko
Total= 6

German
[] You like bread
[] You think American Chocolate would be better with less Sugar
[x] u dont drink your soda without ice
[] You Speak German
[]You know what Schnitzel is and you love it
[] You are Catholic or Protestant
[] You know or are related to a nazi - Nazi! hahaha
[x] You went to Kindergarten/Pre-school
[] you're over 5' 10"
Total=2

Canadian
[x] You play/played hockey
[] you love alcohol
[x] You say eh
[x] You don't believe war is the answer
[x] You know what protein is
[x] You speak some french - ballet terms SO count
[] You love Tim Horton's
[] At one point you lived in a cabin
[x] you have gotten high
Total =6

i m an asian, CANADIAN and a russian. yo man ALPHA.. are u looking at this.. i m a canadian. HAHA.


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Thursday, February 22, 2007

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Saturday, January 20, 2007

hey. today is such a sad sad day. foo is leaving. he is like the best dancer in the company. including the girls and guys. i will definitely remember him. and i will miss him too. but the person going through the hardest time is actually alpha. so this is song is specially dedicated to alpha and foo. i love u guys. u r forever the most perfect and wonderful couple. may u guys meet soon.

In the years to come
Will you think about these moments that we shared
In the years to come
Are you gonna think it over
And how we lived each day with no regrets
Nothing lasts forever though we want it to
The road ahead holds different dreams for me and you

Sometimes goodbye,
though it hurts in your heart,
is the only way for destiny
Sometimes goodbye,
though it hurts,
is the only way now for you and me
Though it's the hardest thing to say
I'll miss your love in every way
So say goodbye
But don't you cry'
CAUSE true love never dies

In a year from now
Maybe there'll be things
we'll wish we'd never said

In a year from now
Maybe we'll see each other
Standing on the same street corner though it rains

Each and every end is always written in the stars
If only I could stop the world
I'd make this last

Sometimes goodbye,
Though it hurts in your heart,
is the only way for destiny
Sometimes goodbye,
Though it hurts,
is the only way now for you and me
Though it's the hardest thing to say
I'll miss your love in every way
So say goodbye (so say goodbye)
But don't you cry'
Cause true love never dies

And when you need my arms to run into
I'll comfort you
Nothing will ever change the way
I feel

Sometimes goodbye,
Though it hurts in your heart,
is the only way for destiny
Sometimes goodbye,
Though it hurts,
is the only way now for you and me
Though it's the hardest thing to say
I'll miss your love in every day
So say goodbye
But don't you cry
Because a true love never dies


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Saturday, January 06, 2007

hi. i m so sad now. because i m going to ABS from april 10 to april 13 then sports day is on the 13th. so pissy off. and sports day was the only event i was looking forward to this year. and now its ruined because of A.B.S. i dun wanna go anymore..... :( :( :(


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Tuesday, December 26, 2006

hey. christmas was great this year. got lots of presents. and like i got alot of things i wanted even though i did not ask for them. like the diary and the SLIPPERS. haha yay. bottom will be a thank u list for the presents be it christmas or birthday:

MYY: sports bra :)
rona: shoe bag :)
sis: diary, 'school' bag :)
cousin: 'hand'bag :)
cousin: SLIPPERS :)
cousin: photo frame:)
dad: silly joke book :)
WQ: sweets :)
eryn: roller :)
and all the money :)

haha yay byebye


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